same_difference | Preparing for loss

The 91 year old mother of my mum is in hospital with pneumonia. She'd been refusing to take food, water or the antibiotics and is currently in a ward. It's clear really she's made her choice, and so it's been instructed to not try and revive her when she goes. I look forward to knowing she will no longer be suffering, her quality of life hasn't been very good. Well that in many ways a consequence of having a bout of pneumonia misdiagnosed (as nothing at all) by a hospital time two years ago, and only being admitted after she'd blacked out (due to lack of Oxygen reaching the brain) a couple of days later.

It's between years (maybe 13) since her husband passed on, and for all I loathe smoking and the role it played in his death, her reaching the age of 91 having smoked all her life up to a few years ago is an impressive feat. Even if she hasn't had a sense of taste since before I was born, and a horrible cough too.

She's lived in London for I think her whole life, and so the distance meant I didn't see her much. Still she will be very much missed. I'll just do what I can to look after my parents with all of this. Thinking about it there is a great deal about her I simply don't know, I shall endeavour to find out, because she deserves to be remembered by me for more than being my Nan.